I think I can see a silver lining..
Acceptance does miracles to one's mood..
I think I will survive the crisis..after all the sky WILL NOT fall on my head.

It's not the end of the world..

I feel light..

I HOPE this happiness lasts..

:-)

Fear

It seems as though I'm hurtling down with no sense of any direction.It seems my roots have been severed and I've been flung-far flung actually with no sense of where I'm going,what I'm doing and why what is happening.

The inertia has been stirred.I'm restless and impatient but I know not what is it that I seek...

I know not what I want,I know not what I like is indeed the best thing,whether it will last..

I'm afraid to hope.I'm afraid to think.I'm afraid of the future.I cannot close my eyes and jump off the cliff.I'm afraid of hurting myself.I'm afraid to take a chance..

A thick pallid sky, Just like the blanket over my brain, Both slowly settling down. I dare not invoke my senses, They are too receptive for my own good...

I wonder if hope really is a good thing..
I'm afraid to hope..what if my expectations are not met?what if my dreams don't come true?what if my worst nightmares become real?



I wonder which is worse :to be an option to somebody or not even figure in the options list..

I wonder why is life so damn uncertain that the even when I'm smiling,it's not reaching my eyes..

when did this happen?
am i getting old?

Trifle

I have decided to STOP thinking the what if's.It's getting me no where.


I'm miffed with somebody.I know this will pass..


I'm missing something/somebody..
I wonder how can I miss something which is not mine..
I hope "this"passes too...

It rained heavily in the morning,and now the sun is out with full force.The sky is clear blue,the leaves of the trees are glistening,and a cool breeze is blowing.It's a mood brightening noon,indeed..

Sometimes I have so much to write that I don't know from where to start..Sometimes I have the same old things to talk about..and I wonder what to write..
Sometimes I want to write but can't do a half baked job..Sometimes I don't want to write..Sometimes I don't want to anything and I wonder how do I bide away my time..

I wish life could be planned.I wish there were no uncertainties.I wish life was predictable.That it was NOT a whirlwind of activity which brought about the ripples that caused so much unrest..