I am vacillating from bouts of guilt to high spiritedness in a span of minutes.It is pretty scary.I hope I'm not losing my mental balance.Yesterday I went to sleep planning today's work.Today the day has turned out to be different completely.There were unprecedented changes in plans,and i could hardly follow the routine I had made or precisely finish the course of work which I was supposed to.But instead of feeling bad,miserable or even tensed,I'm not in the least affected.As in I'm amazed at the lack of the natural reaction but otherwise I"m calm and distanced from the fear.Wonder what's really happening.?